I Miss Him Still.. ♥

 So it's been three weeks and I'm still hurting awfully bad :( I've never been heartbroken before, and I hope never to be again. This is the worst pain ever! I don;t know how someone can do this and cause someone this much distress :( Fair enough if you want to break up with someone then you should do it, but the way things have happened has just made everything a billion times for painful. The only thing I think that will help me is talking to him, but he won't even speak to me. And I have tried! Apparently I am now hated. Which is weird because 4 weeks ago I was loved more than anything. I felt so loved. And now I feel so horrible. I just wish I could go back 4 weeks and change everything. I know we will never be together again, but knowing I will never talk to someone I love again, and that he now all of a sudden hates me, is really a stab in the heart. Sometimes all you need is for that person that hurt you to help fix things. I don't want him as a boyfriend, but we were best friends. And now he's gone, and he doesn't even care anymore. He has moved on instantly and now I am left here to pick up the pieces :(

If you read this, I am sorry for whatever I have done to make you hate me. But please talk to me. I only want a friend in you. I miss you. Everything reminds me of you. We had so much together. Everything I own, all the clothes I wear, every song, it all reminds me of you and how much you loved or hated it. I miss us singing like crazy people together. I always want to wear your favourite outfit with my curly hair because I know you liked it best. But we're over now and I get that. But please be there for me when I need it most ♥

Girls if you have a good man by your side you have no idea how lucky you are! I would do anything to snuggle up and have someone there who loves me.